Updates Finally!!

Well it's been a while since I have written. Probably because looking after a little one takes up 100% of your time. Fallon is now 1 month 1 week old and she's been incredible. She holds her head up most of the time, coo's at us, and smiles so lovely. We got into a routine with her and with a growth spurt that really threw us out of our comfortable routine.

Motherhood, I can't stress how much of a journey it is. Your head and heart runs through so many emotions and you just need to take your time and deal with each one. You have a whole new outlook on life, people, and the world. You worry about nothing but your loved one.

We have made some outings with Fallon and are getting the hang of packing for the baby for traveling. She doesn't care for getting loaded into her carseat but she's slowly getting used to it. She has her first round of shots starting Friday. Thankfully, she was good with her first shot and David will be home to help me soothe her. She's getting so big now weighing in at 10 lbs 3 oz.

Baby's First Easter

Today is Fallon's First Easter!!! I am so excited for her. We don't have any plans for her but have this cute onesie that says "Babies First Easter". It is really cute. Benjamin and Elizabeth came down to visit and we ate and enjoyed the visit. Benjamin, Elizabeth, and David went out for a motorcycle ride and I stayed home and enjoyed the sunshine with Fallon. When Benjamin and Elizabeth left, I went out on my motorcycle and it felt so great to be back out there on it. I didn't have any pains and I just really enjoyed it.

David, I and Fallon just relaxed the rest of our Easter and enjoyed each other's company really. Next year she should be able to enjoy an Easter egg hunt. Those will be memories made and shared.

2 Weeks into Motherhood

Fallon is officially 2 weeks old today and it's been a rollercoaster ride for emotions. They say that you get the "baby blues" and second guess about having your child. I got the "blues" but not from second guessing Fallon's arrival. I am more in love with her than I can say I have been with anyone in my life but my blues come from not wanting to let anyone else share her with me.

I am having the hardest time with letting her go to other family members and it's killing me because I feel that it's wrong but at the same time I can't let it go. I don't know what to do about this. I try to explain it and people say that they understand but I really don't think that they do. I can't put words with how I am really feeling because it's such an intense feeling of emotion and not wanting to let her go.

She's still having some good nights of sleeping. A couple nights she slept for 4+ hours and the other night it was around 6 hours. David's been great with her and getting up at night to do diaper duty and help out with her. I try not to press him too much for help at night because I know he needs his sleep to be able to go to work the next day.

Motherhood is definitely challenging that's for sure but I wouldn't trade the last two weeks for anything. I would go through everything that I have again for her. I just hope that I can continue to be everything that she needs and wants.