Fallon is officially 2 weeks old today and it's been a rollercoaster ride for emotions. They say that you get the "baby blues" and second guess about having your child. I got the "blues" but not from second guessing Fallon's arrival. I am more in love with her than I can say I have been with anyone in my life but my blues come from not wanting to let anyone else share her with me.
I am having the hardest time with letting her go to other family members and it's killing me because I feel that it's wrong but at the same time I can't let it go. I don't know what to do about this. I try to explain it and people say that they understand but I really don't think that they do. I can't put words with how I am really feeling because it's such an intense feeling of emotion and not wanting to let her go.
She's still having some good nights of sleeping. A couple nights she slept for 4+ hours and the other night it was around 6 hours. David's been great with her and getting up at night to do diaper duty and help out with her. I try not to press him too much for help at night because I know he needs his sleep to be able to go to work the next day.
Motherhood is definitely challenging that's for sure but I wouldn't trade the last two weeks for anything. I would go through everything that I have again for her. I just hope that I can continue to be everything that she needs and wants.
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